O Dear Lord this week has been a doozy!!!!!
We’ve hit a whole new level of functioning. I had to ground him from his computer (again) because he’s ordering crap (again).
We made a plan to go to Torrance Bakery but the plan changed, so for hours all I’ve heard was “I want donuts” … on and on and on ... so I finally yelled I AM NOT TALKING TO YOU ANY MORE ABOUT DOUGHNUTS!
I signed back on with Harbor Regional to find services and opportunity for my boy. My beloved case worker looks at me and says “I don't know why you signed up with us again. He is too high functioning for anything we have to offer and too low functioning for typical programs.”
Yay!
He’s so independent and brilliant that we just fall between all the cracks. This may be a good thing but I long for help, a life raft, a road map, anything! I constantly feel like I am walking around in the dark. This is when I realize the plan is bigger than me. I don’t need to read the map, I just need to trust in God and believe He entrusted me with His plan.
I am constantly reminded how far we have come but right now this phase is tough. I suppose the teenage years with all kids are difficult, but having an autism diagnosis just adds another layer of difficulty.
All I really have is my FAITH that keeps me going.