I have so many thoughts yet I’m struggling to get them on paper.
Here is one: I’m struggling with this new identity of mine as caretaker of Dane’s new art career. Dane’s art is happening! Like really, really happening - and I’m in charge, which gives me a lurking uneasiness I can’t seem to shake.
I know he is going places. I know God has led me to this and I have trusted Him for many years with the fate of my son. I vividly remember thinking years ago God you have a plan for him beyond my wildest imagination, something I would never ever think of and I know you LOVE me and will bring us to it!
And here we are. We have an art business and now I’m wondering what my role is now and what the hell I’m doing. God is showing me who Dane is but what HE is showing me about myself? In my mind I feel like I’m fearless and amazing - I have conquered and done the impossible with a kid I was told would/could do nothing. But my heart says God did it, not me. There is no way that anything I could have ever said or done would have put Dane and his art in the presence of one of the most famous people on earth (freakin’ Ringo Starr)!
And so I’m not sure where my identity lies other than being a humble grateful child of The King. I did not manifest this business. I did not dream it up. I did not fight for it. I did not high vibe this into fruition. It came out of complete surrender and trust that I had always prayed for a future and a plan for Dane and that his life would be a conduit for the love of Jesus. He loves us! Truly loves us!